six::twelve

It would be wonderful to be around people who always spoke with a "yes," to be able to entirely trust their every word. The flakiness of others rubs off on you, and you begin to produce your own flakes. I'm tired of not being able to trust myself with every word I say, for I fear the meaning may change with time. Such is what happens when you offer your words and your heart to another, that heart that has been sealed with the Spirit. Can it even be offered to another? It is a Spirit that leads us into selflessness. It is a Spirit that leads us into truth. I suppose then we can rightly offer ourselves to another, but it must be done in the Spirit. If not, the flakes begin to fall, the "yes" is confused, and to trust yourself becomes a far off possibility.

When you cannot trust yourself, when you are far from a healthy self-knowledge, how can you expect to be a fruitful person, or salty and light-filled as the Jesus says the people of the Kingdom are? You don't trust yourself due to something inherently trustworthy in you. Hence, doing all things in the Spirit. To trust another is to see the image of God in them, to find that point where you are both one, in origin, in a state of grace. Such vision is made possible and sustained by that Spirit which the Father has anointed you with. It is a mysterious grace that the Holy Spirit, the very being of God, has come to dwell in the people of God. Even in these days when I am not ever-aware of that Presence, I should allow its thought to comfort me, to draw me toward God and toward that type of self-knowledge that flavors the world and sheds light in the dark places.

(2 Corinthians 1:18-22, Psalm 119, Matthew 5:13-16)