To Arrange a Life

This is a pointless practice, it could be said.
No one reads poetry these days, some think.
I didn’t until a year or so ago. I would take

the time to write my thoughts, that catharsis
of Aristotelian poetics, for a slowing down
of my breath—but to take the time to listen?
But now I want to hear the whispers of silence,

and somehow I think that involves this reading
and writing of words in strange arrangement,
open mostly to inconclusive endings, for you
can’t expect anyone to read these things,

anyway. Any way is not one way, and I’d
encourage you to listen your way, as long
as that includes listening. Sounds are not always

voices and messages. Lack of message is at
times the loudest message of all. That’s how
they get you. We think we know discernment.

We make a lot of choices. But who really reads
poetry these days, and why would I bother
to write out my life’s thoughts when they arrive,
to look inside my heart looking for what is not

dark that I might be freed from my strange
arrangements?

A Year Without Poetry

I told myself, Write, and I put
the pen down. Told myself,
Write, and made a phone call.

They say you have to write,
just write, and write again, and
I don't know if they're right,

but I know I have not been. If
this has been a year without
poetry, it was not, I think, a

year without theory, a breadth
of time to be forgot. But a year
without verses must surely have

been recorded somewhere, even
an unseen somewhere; it was just
not so readily edited, spaced, paced,

or considered as it slipped by.

Advent Sight

In a world embittered by what others have done in the name of God, we would do well to approach God in supplication with great humility when asking, Teach me your way, O Lord. Too often has God been morphed in our feeble minds into an enabler of bad tidings, into an oracle allowing our eyes to see whatever we want to see. But this is one of the many reasons we celebrate Advent, and all the other great festal seasons of the Church calendar. We need better vision. We need our actions to be guided by a holy pattern.

In this season, we await the in-breaking of the kingdom, the star and staff of Balaam's utterance (see Readings for Monday of 3rd Week of Advent), God in the flesh that all of our flesh might be renewed and quickened for the ways of God. Even now we partake in the Advent we await. And in this waiting we are strengthened to be humble, to be able to recognize the source of Christ's authority which shapes our whole beings to be faithful.

Hopeful Sadness

I would imagine that only
those who would say, "the
Lord does not judge us

according to what we
deserve," can only say such
with any authenticity

if they do so with some
grieving. Otherwise, why
the need for the lifting

of heavy burdens? For
strengthening our weaker
parts? For water to keep

us from fainting? In other
words, a tinge of sadness
is a great gift. A sense

of hopelessness is the
awakening of hope. We ought
to still have doubts; never

leave behind those questions.
Only, realize they can be freed
to new modes of lucidity.

So, bless the Lord, O my soul,
all that is within me--
my dissipating fears, my

confidences, affections, visions,
sadness and joy. Fuse my paradox,
and help me to learn from the

meek and humble heart. Jesus Christ,
Son of God, have mercy on me,
a sinner.

(Isaiah 40:25-31; Psalm 103; Matthew 11:28-30)

Terra Incognitas

These are terra incognitas, histories,
to wade through marshes of words,
to swim across lakes of images. Disguised?

Their retreats seem more apparent, yet
transparent, when we’d rather not
know the past as it is felt presently,

a ghost’s nip. On our heels, we’re
forced to face mirrored halls, and
often we do so with closed eyes. Why?

History hurts. Our own acts are enough
to swallow, to still be able to shrug,
and so now the weight of the Church?

Leave it unknown! Leave it alone! Keep it
away! Let me say my pledge, covering my heart,
easy words of heavenly citizenship, I believe,

enough. Ahistory is much easier,
no need to point to how we got here.


But slow down and breathe. Yes,
mystery is unknown. But let us not run
from our flailing efforts, graced by mystery

drawn near. Nor put our back to nuance.
Things shift. We’re shifty characters and
so were our forefathers. Shifting

solidity, solidification, foundation, and
apostles are still sent to speak us back
down to this earth where grace breaks in.

Breathe together, gathered, called of
the Church in the world. Walk the unknown—
they were known—ways, the paths

the aisles to the chancel, the nave of
saints’ prayers and texts. And in all
things, still, say in the Spirit the name

over all names, prayer of prayers, Word
of words, history made history; the truth,
confession, sanctifier of flesh, tongues,

hearts that speak, “Jesus Christ.”

Child, deep down

You, child, reach deep down there,
into the deep opening of the earth,
the serpent's home. Not the cursed one,
but the eternal swallow, the staffed
snake, the swirl of your veins,
the path of you blood. Reach there,
into your depths, into your childlike
self, your revealed self, hidden person
freed from the lowliness of winter
and summer's despair. Reach down
and grow from there, flourish as justice
in the time of God's peace, with
blessed eyes that see what prophets and
humble rulers once only
imagined, now known
through the Son for the Father's good pleasure,
in the vitality of the Holy Spirit's
delightful fruit. Gather, now, all,
all you children and creatures—
those that bear piercing teeth now
purr; which bleat, coo in innocent
frivolity. Commingle around the
table, and banquet the gladness astir,
and taste that depth, that true good, that
endless end.